It Is Okay To Be Good But Is It Good To Be Okay?

Took that from lil bro's quote. I guess that it is okay to be good, to a certain extent, of cos.. It's like swagga. Sometimes u gotta turn the swag on when the right time comes.. Otherwise, people dislike u or be hatin' on u.. Good to be okay? not really. Everyone wants to be different. Including me.. But I just have to lead an okay life just to get by. Nothing extraordinary lest I make it that way. Which I did.. I'm enjoying life right now.. Well, sort of..

I mean why bother saying those things when it dun mean anything right now? Bubble u? I'm the one whose bubble have been burst.. Deep feelings for me? My feelings for u deepen only for it to be swallowed and regurgitate.. U love me? Yeah I did.. Deeply and sincerely, only for it to be a word again.. I just can't believe I went thru the hurt again.. U sayin' u dun wanna be in a relationship cos u're scared of being hurt again? Do u know how deeply hurt I am right now? As much as u are, I guess.. Just that u have a cushion to soften the blow n I dun.. I was always talking to u bout my problems.. Isn't it fair that I know some of yours? Isn't it fair that I get an explanation for the David Blaine magic from u? I got alotta whys right now.. But I couldn't get an answer for either one..

Hurt

Hurt. Deja Vu. Why does this things happen to people like me? Oh wait, everyone is human.

To the point that I won't forgive myself.

Period

I'm feeling down. PERIOD.

Yes, I'm hurt cos I feel it's like I'm being lead on again.. Deja Vu.. Sigh..

The Hatchet Is Six Feet Under

And so... Here I thought that I will never ever hear from her again. Since she blocked me, so I assumed that everything's like "I do my thang, u do yours". Well well well, look who's popping up.. Haha! I was surprised, VERY surprised. But oh wells, I'm not one to create enmity so, let bygones be bygones.

I swear not to open my mouth unnecessarily this time.

And The Professor Speaks...

And he said, "Let there be..... tonning!" But it didn't happen tonight.. sheesh.. But its aight.. We gittin' closer to the KL trip date.. Hurray! Gon' get me some clothes.. And more clothes.. And oh yeah, FOOD.. It happens to a guy with a high metabolism rate.. hahaha!

Honestly, I dunno what to say.. U disgust me..

Throw Some D's On Tha Biyatchi!

and so.. the collabo's gonna start..

Angels and Demons was seriously fucking dope. Should have read the book again or do my research properly. Darn. Got the wrong facts and info. Oh well, we know what it is. I give 6 out of 5 stars. :D It's just too cool. Watch it to know it.

I'm hooked to Yung LA now. The futuristic swagbwoi is cool. Well, what do u expect from Grand Hustle bwois? WE FLY FUTURISTIC.. :D

Oh Geez

Oh geez. I've committed something that I shouldn't have done. I missed Mother's Day. Didn't even call Mum up. I'm such an ass.

Anyway, I'm done wit ya. Ain't talking bout it any longer

Moderation

what a week. i'm physically drained. which is why i dun bother with the caps. no link, i know. but yeah, i'm so tired i wanna go on a vacation immediately.

i finally change my mp3 playlist which means i just dump whatever songs i could find and unfortunately, got this jiwang song. which of cos, brings back memories. before this, i was happy but hearing that song, its like wtf really happen. but i took that time to reflect on that memory lane and learnt that everything happens for a reason and i cannot/must not/shall not/have not/will not/dare not be upset all the time.

kl trip in june confirmed. now i need the moolah so i can splurge like its crazy. speaking of moolah, i need to find work. and i think i gotta just do it instead of saying do it all the time. it irritates others and i realised it's beginning to irritate me too.

just got my laptop back and it's not in a fucking good condition. i want a new laptop. eh no, i want my old laptop back with everything that i used to have. gee. it's hard remaking the same ones again.

It's All Good

All good? Yeah prolly. Maybe that was what I need. Some stranger to fuck me up.

I'm angry with myself.

Izzat, you're an ass that will come back from this stronger.

Sunday Morning. Too Early.

Sunday morning and rain is falling~

Literally though. It's raining heavily.. For like a few minutes.. =.="
Lucky for me, I came back early. Was out for practice at 4 but macam tak perlu 'cos my beloved instrument is still under maintenance.. FUGG..

and there goes the thunder.. Geez..

It's been awhile since I saw the FP team. Miss them so much, esp. Aunty and the kids. Did them wrong but they know it's not my fault.

Anyways, met up wit the rest at ESP and slack the night away. The End.

Oh wait, I got a new addiction. It's called 24 by Jem. Check them out. I was blog-hopping as usual and found it on this girl's blog and the song is dope, of course. Her name is Aminah by the way. By the looks of it, she seems like a nice girl. Anyway, thanks Khai for sampling that song!

Ok people, my Mee HongKong is waiting for me..

Untitled. For Now.

'Cause I can't find a suitable one.
And I'm high on trance right now. Fujin is so addictive. I sound so matrep-ish. Haha!

Anyway, caught a movie with the Civic Clique last night. It was called "Jangan Tegur". I forgot the translation, sorry, cos my bahasa sucks. haha! But the movie was good ish.. It was probably the only time you can see rappers lose their swagga. haha! it was scary as fuck. Ain't giving details, just watch it for yourself.

Hmm, the night before "tonn-ning" session was meaningful though.

I hope when I get behind the mic

I will be like a dynamite

'Cause I be happy as tho it was the last thing I do tonight

I wouldn't call it peer pressure but I may have succumb to my envy of rocking behind the mic. After all, why work behind the scenes when you can shine in the scene at the same time? So yeah, I'm gonna start writing again.

On another note, it's time I humble myelf. It's hard, yes, but it's for the best. I don't wanna decline to my former self. I roll wit the best but I have to be at my best behaviour if I gotta stay best. It's time I know people instead of them knowing me.

I can't be the perfect person but I try my best to be the imperfect perfectionist. Sis-in-law told me to not rush things nor chase someone so madly 'cause a "she" ain't the only "she" in this world.

Reelity (Reality) Bytes

Well, this is reality. I guess a lot has changed since. I ain't missing nothin'. But though you may not respect me anymore, at least respect my mum when u see her. You know her, she knows u. I dun care who u're going out with, I can't be bothered. Yes, whatever I said was bullshit. I admit it, twas' bullshit. I can't believe I said those words previously. But anyway, .......fuck it.

And thus far...

I'm so fresh that I'm fresher than peels.. haha.. aight aight.. just cos I got arab money and balled it last night doesn't mean I can rock all the time.. But in the meantime, it's nice to be the Royal Fly-ness.. Sure beats Dopeness.. or Freshness.. oh wait, Im fresh as it is.. haha!

anyway, im beginning to love RP.. after loathing it for 2 years, I think I can grasp the fact that it's easier in Final Year.. Albeit FYP.. haha! so, year 1s, enjoy ur time while it lasts.. Year 2, persevere for now.. My fellow batch people, cheers to the good life! :D

Cos Serenade Tagged Me

1:Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
gee.. so many spots.. heeeeee.. i ain't tellin'! :p

2:How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
feelin excited.. cos i wanna rock orange today! :)

3:Who was the last person you took a photo with?
darn.. i can't remember.. oh! wit the EMP clique..

4:Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
Prolly.. But I grew up in the ghetto b4..

5:Would you ever donate blood?
nah.. blood is too precious.. like water..

6:Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes, in fact, all my best frens are female..

7:Do you want someone dead?
not really..

8:What does your last text message say?
"bro, aku kat TRCC" "bro, I'm at TRCC"

9:What are you thinking of right now?
alotta thangs.. FYP, PP, CE, EMP, SLA, RP, girls.. :p

10:Do you wish someone was with you right now?
yes of cos.. I just dun wanna say the name.. :D

11:What time did you go to sleep last night?
midnite? was youtubing for snoop dogg's stuff..

12:Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
At CWP.. went shopping last night.. ARAB MONEY!!

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes.. but it's people..

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Nas..

15: 10 people tagged to do this quiz:
1. Serenade - TAKE IT BACK!! :p
2. Azura
3. FKD
4. Kidda Jidda
5. KHRL
6. Dopey - if she knows i got a blog la..
7. Nadiah Loves
8. Memnoch :p
9. Myza
10. Sheril

16: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
Not that I know of.. hmm.. not in a long time, anyway.. :D

17: Is 3 a male or a female?
Male.. My bro, homebwoi, nigguh..

18: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
that would be one for my *ahem* collection! :p

19: What is Number 1 studying about?
Outdoor Adventure Learning.. have fun riding!

20: Is Number 4 single?
Nope. Blessed with someone.. :D

21: Say something about Number 2?
the cutest girl i've ever seen.. :D other than that, she's one of the bestest fren anyone could have..

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
Dope + Dope = Overdosage.. Bad..

23: Describe Number 9.
Pretty and really cute.. haha.. good fren too..

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
hmm.. that be weird.. really weird.. hahaha..

25: Do you like Number 8?
my nigguh!

Back to School

2nd day of school and I'm tired already. Haha. But I'm glad to see those familiar faces.. Zoo, Serenade, umm.. many more la.. And new faces as well.. Heeeheee! *hint hint* Hmm, the new system was ok.. At least I can sleep in abit more.. Haha!

Appreciation.. Didn't I do that?

Not that I wanna care but I dunno.. It's dwindling, waning, whatever..

And Grandma brought it up

Grandma brought up the subject again, to which I fell silent. How or what am I suppose to say? I honestly didn't know what to tell her. She found out eventually and told me off, to which again I fell silent. Not that I dun wanna fight and defend myself but it's saddening to hear her bring that name up again. It's not that I dun wanna hear it. I do, I really do.

I wanna see that face again, wanna talk to her normally again. I really wonder how she is.

Most of my nights are spent on wishful thinking, seeing tears dropping from the sky, till I fall asleep. All I know right now is she's "ok" and she doesn't ... fuck this..

Wow. Comeback.

Hahaha.. After a few months of absence, finally I'm blogging again!

November - April = 6 months..

Sorry guys, been busy with school and outside stuffs..

Well, been making beats again.. FYP's a bitch..

Next week, school's starting and I can't wait to see her again! :)